* Trigger Warning - this post talks about suicide *
Dear friend, There’s lots of things I need to tell you – to say to you – and yet there are almost no words to say them in, because sometimes words just aren’t enough; hugs are sometimes better. If you have been through my very worst with me, and are still here, then you are… Continue reading Dear friend
It goes without saying that the last week and a bit have been the worst of my life so far, and despite the ‘odds’ and my determination to end my life, I am still here, alive and breathing. I have moments when I am angry with myself for attempting to take my own life, and… Continue reading Co-production and recovery
I know the question you’re all thinking. Perhaps you're afraid to ask me because it’s a subject you (quite rightly) fear, or you feel awkward about it, or you’re just terrified of my answer. I also know that you may want to ask but at the same time don't want to ask, because you don't… Continue reading Talking about my suicide attempt…
"Hope is the thing with feathers, that perches in the soul, and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all." ~ Emily Dickinson - Ward 14 court-yard Pain is real. But apparently, So is hope. Love from, Jess x
* Trigger warning: this post talks about suicide *
All I have wanted to do over the last few days is to… give. up. You probably guessed it…I am in yet another crisis. Although, I haven’t been admitted to hospital this time. Whilst I am glad about this, I’m also feeling uncertain about it too. Because the last time I felt like this, hospital… Continue reading Another crisis…
It’s 9:56am on a Friday morning. I’ve had a fairly unremarkable week; despite spending the weekend under the crisis team, my thoughts have settled down to their usual level and have remained manageable. “You just have to make it through to Friday” I told myself every-day, “because on Friday you’ll see your CPN.” I don’t… Continue reading The danger of distraction?
We cannot draw a line between our physical bodies and our mental minds. We are physical minds and mental bodies. This is a fact. It is all one of the same; our mental health is intricately related to our physical health; our mental identity related to our physical identity, and vice versa. We are all… Continue reading Are we mental or are we physical?
Pain doesn't shout; It is a soft smile of a silent fighter whose sharp edges would weigh you down if you listened to their tales. Pain doesn't shout; It is the whisper of endless, boundless grace even though nothing can be a shield against the suffering for which there's no protection. Pain doesn't shout; It… Continue reading “Silent pain”